Im not ready

I texted mak this morning n told her that ill be coming today.
Its good to hear that bcoz i miss u, sometimes i cry, mak said.
My heart melted and i was about to cry.
It really touches me to the core and i feel bad since i couldnt always be there for her next to her as much as she needs me.

My sister told me that mak's cancer has spread to her lungs. I never ask to hear this and i wish this was not true.
There might be something wrong somewhere.

I wish mak will stay strong for many years to come.
I wish mak will fight her cancer and survive.
I wish i would still have many years to see, hold, hug and kiss her.

Im scared of losing her.
I cant imagine a life without her.

Oh Allah, please protect, cure and bless my mak.

If u read this, i beg u to pray for my mak,rahmah bt mohd jono.

Please pleaseee i beg u, i beg u.
Thank you. Jazakumullahu khoir.