am i okay?

when im not okay
you can see from my face
so do not ask me if im okay
coz ill say that im okay
im tired of lying

when i pretend that am okay
sometimes i try to smile at people
to care about people
just to forget about my emptiness
but when people dont appreciate me
ill be upset
i know i shouldnt
im just so bad
coz its the sign i didnt do it for the sake of Allah

everything was okay
the one is not okay is just me
i also dont understand my heart
im losing someone
im losing my strength
im losing interest in many things

sometimes i need to scream
or maybe i need to sing
or maybe i just couldnt do anything
coz i cant change things

to those who smile at me
make me smile
care about me
make me laugh
talk to me
make jokes with me
appreciate me
thank you, i love you.