i meet

i meet people
different2 people
some have pride in themselves
some does not empathize
some treat others differently
some dont care about you
some gang up on you
some leave you after they find more fun friends
some protect their friends in wrong way
some cannot admit mistakes
some talk to others only when they need something
some didnt reply when we greet them
some does not even look at the person who tries to smile at them
some is too confident
some is arrogant
some is egoist
some never apologize
ive had enough
enough is enough
i just need to be tough
keep calm and eat currypuff
bye

i write

i have uninstalled twitter and instagram
yahoooo
hopefully things will get better
sorry blogspot, i dont treat you nicely
hope you still can be here for me
i think
i learn
i write

if you know me and read this cuz you care, thank you i love you

all is new

ive tried
i tried so hard
i was stuck
so i stopped
i cared too much
it ate me in the inside
they dont have good sight
nothing was at the dark side
i dont wanna be a fool
i have to be so careful
things that are colourful
doesnt mean they are wonderful
everything looks new
i must change too
let me get this through
give me some space
to have some peace
if i still cannot believe
i would leave

lari

aku begini kau begitu
aku diam kau bicara
aku nangis kau tertawa
aku berfikir kau menyindir
aku resah kau tak kisah
aku letih
bukan disisih tapi menyisih
biarkan aku
sendiri
mencari erti
dalam meditasi
menyusuri duri
dalam hati2
berlalu hari
hari demi hari
biar pergi
berlari

. ameerah diana . cyberjaya .

aku dan dia

bismillah. hi..!

i wanna share something. usually i dont tell too much coz im worried people would follow us without knowledge. any questions, plz ask.

it started at our secondary school. then masuk uni sama.
me and husband got married at the age of 20. now its 10yo marriage alhamdulillah. we were schoolmates.

things yang dia suruh saya buat sejak sekolah:
1. pakai armsocks.
2. gelak tutup mulut.
3. jangan gedik2.
4. tutup aurat elok2.

over tak haha. stress gak dulu.
tapi dia ni mmg mcm betul2 nak kahwin dengan aku je.
kalau dia tinggalkan aku bila dah bentuk aku mcm ni, mmg sakit hati ah.

break? banyak kali.
gaduh? selalu. (sampai sekarang hahaha gaduh2 mulut la)
kitorang kaya? tak.
awal kahwin hidup susah? yes.
banyak ujian dalam marriage? yes.
dia jodoh? hati rasa.

doa bertahun2 sebelum kahwin:
"Ya Allah
Jika dia benar untukku
Dekatkanlah hatinya dengan hatiku
Jika dia bukan milikku
Damaikanlah hatiku dengan ketentuan-Mu"

inspired by lagu permata yang dicari - dehearty

my fav nashid tu

lagi satu, doa macam ni:
"jika dia terbaik untukku dan aku terbaik untuknya, permudahkanlah jodoh kami".

doa la macam tu. we dont know whos and whats the best for us.
things/persons we like might not be good for us, vice versa.
so we ask from Him The All-knowing.

jangan tertipu dengan nafsu.
be careful if u like 2 3 4 persons at one time.
bukan nak promote kahwin muda.
score studies dulu.
buat apa2 mesti kena ada redha n restu parents.
ada org excel in studies n career even kahwin muda.
tapi jgn lupa, ramai juga yang divorce.

people tunjuk yang indah2 aje.
takkan tengah gaduh, tukar diapers anak, backpain masa pregnant, berjaga malam anak meragam, problems dengan family members,  semua nak amik gambar/video kan haha.

what we need,
patience.
trust.
truthfulness.
honesty.
communication.
care.
tolerance.
togetherness.
faith.
faith.
faith.

responsibilities tu memang berat.
its our amanah.
we dont want to be together in this world only,
we want to be together till jannah.
is it easy? no.
we have to bear the bitterness of this life if we want to taste the sweetness of the paradise.

keep calm and remember Allah.

take care.

at the hospital

being at the hospital we can learn many things. what i learnt:

1. sakit x kenal usia. 28yo lady next to mak's bed skin cancer terminal stage. she has a small child

2. a husband's love and care. her husband sits there patiently. adjust the bed, her head, her pillow. im touched.

3. patience. be patient to help mak at the toilet, to take wudhu, to move, to walk, to feed her etc.

4. pray even when we are sick.
another makcik always solat on time, helped by her son. he inspired me to help mak too.

5. pray. a few times met a makcik (womb cancer patient) at musolla. she always waits for the next waktu. when i finished maghrib, she asked to stay and wait for isha. i said ill come again.

those cancer patients are so strong.
may Allah cure all of them. amin.

mak got cancer because of one illness.
im also having the same illness, i got it from mak.
hope i can be treated early. am on trearment now.
please be nice to me, i am a bit fragile.

stay kind, healthy and young pipol!

take care.

i learn

i learn that even when we value people,
some could not even see us
i learn that some people would just be with with us if they dont have anyone else.
i learn that human tend to see people's flaws and mistakes before theirs.
i learn that some people are good only in the eyes of certain people.
i learn that we may disagree or argue on things, but we still have to respect each other.
i learn that there will still be some people who dislike us even we have tried a lot to be good.
i learn that some people would just agree with certain people even on things that are not right.
i learn that some people were born to impress others.
i learn that some people wanna look good in the eyes of others.
i learn that there is some people who dont know how to appreciate others.
i learn that we have to have empathy even everyone else doesnt.
i learn that i should keep learning.

tenda biru

I found this awesome recording of "🍃🌼🅃🄴🄽🄳🄰 BIRU💗" on #Smule: https://www.smule.com/p/1005608634_2874854253

#singing is her therapy

Special for you

ure like a sister and a friend,
i feel comfortable with u,
u inspire me n motivate me in many ways n sometimes by saying nothing.
when i said: i feel incomplete without ur presence n we need u, i really mean it..

u accept me as who i am,
ure always open n be there when i need ur help n consultation,
u always appreciate my effort,
u make me appreciated,
u make me see myself in a better way,
Ure 1 of the reasons i stayed at current department,
Ure the one who convinced me that im needed there,
Ure the reason i put aside n hold my passion,
Ure the reason i stand my current job nature,
U always support me when i make decisions,
Ure always with me when no one cares about my points,
U always try to understand me when no one does,
u always give us chances and guide us to improve,
ure a strong lady n a good example for all of us,
and ure our role model.
A good leader doesnt need to instruct much but people will just follow, so you are.
thank u so much..

thank u for giving me ur trust,
thank u for giving me the awards last time,
thank u for ur acknowledgment towards me,
thank u for every single thing that uve done for all of us and the school.

thank u so much for all your hard work, effort, support, love, care, advice, and motivation.
jazakillahu khoir. may Allah repay u with goodness.
may Allah bless u and ur new journey.
may Allah forgive and guide us always.
Amin.

-Diana-

Pageviews mencanak

Hai. Cerita dia pageviews blog ni mencanak naik pasal post pegawai tadbir n41 tu..
Ingat nya ada orang stalk ke apa.. haha.
Selalu sebulan 6 pageviews je weh hahahah..
Kali ni seminggu 600++ ..

Memang tengah nak ada interview ke?
Yang saya tahu sekarang tengah hot PTD kan..

Anyhow, all the best people..

Siapa nak jadi cikgu meh la try..
International school at Cyberjaya..
Abedeen Academy..

mana tahu kalau saya berhenti ke, boleh ganti saya.. #tetibe

Salam ramadan..

Perempuan

Jangan gedik sangat.
Jangan perasan.
Jangan seek attention sgt.
Control macho sikit. (acah2 je macam saya)
Jangan bagi lelaki sentuh.
Jangan usha lelaki sgt.
Jangan mencarut.
Lelaki cool2, u lebih2 kenapa.
Lagi mahal, lagi bernilai.
Kalau nak love laki, biar serious.
Kalau nak ada relationship, aim untuk kahwin.
Cover aurah elok2.
Biarlah muka cantik, perangai pun cantik.

#selfreminderjuga
#sisnasihat
#nasihatsisuntuksis

The reason

Ure the one who always appreciate my effort,
Ure the reason i stayed at current department,
Ure the one who convinced me that im needed there,
Ure the reason i put aside n hold my passion,
Ure the reason i stand my current job nature,
Ure always there whenever i make a decision,
Ure always with me when noone cares about my point,
U always understand me when noone does.

If ure not there anymore
How could i stay strong
What and who else can motivate me
Could i stay and move on?

am i okay?

when im not okay
you can see from my face
so do not ask me if im okay
coz ill say that im okay
im tired of lying

when i pretend that am okay
sometimes i try to smile at people
to care about people
just to forget about my emptiness
but when people dont appreciate me
ill be upset
i know i shouldnt
im just so bad
coz its the sign i didnt do it for the sake of Allah

everything was okay
the one is not okay is just me
i also dont understand my heart
im losing someone
im losing my strength
im losing interest in many things

sometimes i need to scream
or maybe i need to sing
or maybe i just couldnt do anything
coz i cant change things

to those who smile at me
make me smile
care about me
make me laugh
talk to me
make jokes with me
appreciate me
thank you, i love you.

Rainbow

Sometimes when it rains heavily with thunder and lightning,
we are in sorrow.

When they gone, only then we notice Allah wants to give us
the beautiful rainbow.

Mak is cancerfree

Alhamdulillah, a few days ago mak was declared as cancerfree.
We knew mak has cancer last year, during the last ten days of Ramadhan.
And we knew that its a test from Allah, it was from Allah.
Now, Allah has taken it out from mak's body. This all is his decree.
I was at school when i heard this good news. And i was happily crying.
Stay strong mak.
Thank u to everyone who have ever prayed for my mom.
Stay healthy, take care guys.
Do show your care to your loved ones.
Tell them that u love them.
Hug and kiss them.
Hopefully Allah gives us so many years to spend with them.

May Allah protect, bless and forgive us.
Amin.

Alhamdulillah, thank u Allah.

Let go

Sometimes.
If u dont remember what u did,
it means u didnt mean it.
Seems like nothing's significant.
I wont remind then.
Its better not to talk about it.
If we can just let go.
Its good.
Im good.
I dont wanna know.
I wont ask more.
I wont open the door.
Keep it on the low.
Just dont let it show.
We'll just leave it as so.
We are good, yes or no.
Yeahhh.

As a teacher..

Lately i heard about teacherstudent special relationship.
I believe its not impossible.
I ever heard people get married to their teacher.

As a teacher, i do admit we prefer some students over others.
We feel comfortable with a few.
And sometimes we just have that chemistry.
When im being caring, i do really care.
I also notice that, if we care for them, students will acknowledge us.

But to me, we should know our boundaries.
We have to control our feeling.
We have to care for, educate and motivate our students as they are our students, our responsibility.
We want them to be good people, good muslims, inshaAllah.

In current workplace, I was meant to teach secondary students when i first came.
But i was covering year 3 class as the previous teacher went missing in action.
After a while, I started to love primary kids and decided to stay at primary.

This is my first experience handling lower primary kids. Is it challenging? Oh, even tiring.
Do i only care about my own students?
No. I do care about all students in the school.

We teach and educate.
Great future leaders, we generate.
InshaAllah.

Teacher Diana.
Abedeen Academy.

Be honest

Do confess. Be true. Be honest. You will deserve my respect.

Abedeen Academy Tilawah AlQuran Event

Yesterday we went to KLCC to watch this event live. Its a school trip. My friend and I went there early to cop tempat. We were tired but we had good experience, we had good time.

Penat sampai student pun masuk dalam mimpi. Haha.

Lets love Al-Quran, dear friends and students.

Much love,

Teacher Diana yang look young😜

A teacher

We teach
We care
We love
We inspire
We motivate
We support
We educate
We share
We favor. Even we are not supposed to. Haha.
We get mad.
We get tired.
We do have feelings.
We have good days.
We face bad days.
We try.
And try.
We move on.
And move on.
We want to see you be a good person.

💜💜💜

Be true Be kind

Theres a straight line
Make a hand sign

Keep this in mind

Try to be kind
Not only to people we like
But whoever comes into sight
People have their own fight
Thats the unseen side
During day and night
Your smile is bright
It may shine peoples heart
We have to believe
This is how we live
Not only to take but to give
Be kind be positive
Though its hard
Though people throw you mud
Some just dont care
Some cause you nightmare
Some cause pain you couldnt bare
Some isnt always there
Walk a hundred mile
Lend people your smile
Move on
Life goes on
Be kind
InshaAllah, the reward is on

Ku dongak ku perhatikan

Ku dongak ku perhatikan
Indahnya awan
Bersatu mengumpul air hujan
Bersama menanggung bebanan
Berkorban mendung kehitaman

Indahnya awan
Taat perintah Tuhan
Saat waktu ditepatkan
Lepaskan air yang dirahmatkan
Membelai insan dan hidupan

Indahnya awan
Berpisah memberi laluan
Untuk sang mentari
Kembali bersinar menerangi
Sang bumi Ilahi

Indahnya awan
Bergerak membikin fungsi melunas misi
Berganding demi solusi
Biar minda bisa adaptasi
Bisa kan jadi satu meditasi
Bisa kan jadi terapi
Buat hati yang sepi basi tak berisi

Indahnya awan

Paling indah lagi
Tuhannya Robbi
Tuhanku Maha Suci
Pemilik awan dan mentari
Penjaga langit dan bumi
Pentadbir alam nan seisi

Paling indah lagi
Cinta tertinggi
Ya Rahman Ya Hadi Ya Baqi

Ameerah Diana.
Cyberjaya.
06042019.

This is life

We are here in this world to be tested by Allah.

There are some people who love us, there are some who hate us.
There are some people who can accept our flaws and accept us as who we are, there are some who wont see the good in us and even dont want to see it.

The only thing that we can do is just know who we are, try to be kind to others and move on.

Forgive people even they dont apologize.
Apologize to people even if we dont make any mistake.

Allah states in surah Al-Baqarah, its better to forgive others rather than you give them something then later you hurt them.

Sometimes, its neither my fault nor your fault, but its just that we dont have kimia. Huhu.

But to me, i will try to treat everyone equally and accordingly.

My principle, if you can treat me well, i will be nice to you.
If you can be nice to me, i will love you.
If you love me, i will love you more.

From inside,
Ameerah Diana
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